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With friendships, there's a give and take when to comes to conversing about things going on in our lives and whatnot. I've never been good with talking about personal things but I'm great at listening to everyone. Which is what happens most of the time and you know, I like it. When it is my turn, I really don't have much to say. My mind races, trying to find something substantial to respond with but most of the time my thought process is like this: "Oh, lord. They just spilled their guts out for me and I've got nothing! Umm, 'The Office' was great! No, that's not even... Er, Alton Brown is my culinary hero! Um..." The thing is, I'm okay most of the time with things and I really don't have much to complain about. If I do, I'll turn to my therapy, pen & paper. But somehow, it all adds up to this: I'm a little bit of mystery to everyone, even my friends. I've been getting increasingly frustrated with people trying to pry into my life, as if I'm hiding something. I'm really not. I share what I share and talk about what I talk about. I'm not hiding anything. I choose not to talk about certain things because it makes me uncomfortable, and if that equates to hiding something then what the heck! I can't be an "open book" or be "secretless." I'm just not built that way. It's not a trust issue, no. I don't like being open about everything because it makes me feel vulnerable. I don't like feeling that way. Keeping certain things―most of my emotions, thoughts, little slices of life―to myself is what makes me okay with things. It might be, I guess, unhealthy to do that all the time, but it's not destroying me. I'll have my moments when I need to unload but otherwise, it's what keeps me sane and grounded. If I didn't have a tiny space for 'me, myself, and I,' I would've gone crazy a long time ago. I'm guarded because that's what I've been taught. And yes, it's probably working against me in many ways but I can't let my walls crumble right away. I do realize that is my problem; I'm completely incapable of letting someone get close to me and vice versa. Still, keep chipping away. I'm a tough shell to break, but it'll happen eventually. One day the walls will fall and I'll be... okay. I'm just a low key kind of gal. 
Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End was great! I think the Pirates trilogy is my favorite because it's just really fun. Everything about it is fun. Anywho, the action was good and it tied everything together. Make sure to stay till the very end of the credits for something extra! 
Honestly, I think my sense of time is gone. Just... it's gone. "What are the flyers for?" "Oh, so-and-so lost their cat." "Really? When?" "May 23rd." "Wasn't that like 2 weeks ago?" "...yesterday." "Oh." I am living through Matt, the 'Frugal Traveler', as he road trips across America this year. Just him and his mighty Volvo! Watch his first video in which he plans out his trip, zigzagging across the states. He went around the world last year, which was amazing to read about. Every Wednesday, he updates with another article and more statelines crossed. I can't wait to read about the funky and quirky places America has. It's going to be fried gold1! 1 'Fried gold' means great or perfect (urbandictionary), as mentioned to in Spaced, my favorite show of all time. It's also mentioned in Shaun of the Dead. One might call me a fanatic. 
Long Beach teen is on the top of the world: "The youngest American ever to scale Mt. Everest has now conquered the highest peaks on each of the seven continents." At 18, I think I was pretty okay with just going to college... I can't believe she conquered all seven summits. That's a dream. I think I would be on the top of the world if I stood at the foot of Mt. Everest. One day, my friend. One day. 
I can't stop listening to Mika. 
The Office season finale made me really, really, really happy. Yes, that last 'really' was bolded, underlined, and italicized. 
So I found the perfect birthday cake. I... yeah. Hi, I'm a nerd. 
I'm scared of the future. I like the unexpected. I like not knowing. Why am I afraid? Wherever the wind decides to take me, I will go. Because everyone has a plan. Finally, maybe I'll be able to live my life. 
The Office, "Beach Games" Pam = win! I love her character arc this season. She's being honest and finally doing what she wants to make herself happy. Go Pam! So much love for Pam Beesly, you guys. So much love. I want to hug all the writers. And pretty much everyone who works on The Office. What's going to happen on the season finale next week? Ahhh. 
I was in the mood for a fun movie so I popped in National Treasure. Dude, that movie rules. I don't care what anyone says. That movie freakin' rules. And I'm not saying it's like Oscar material or anything. It's just so fun and not overly done in the cheese factory. It's a genuinely good fun/action/family film. I, too, was skeptical when it first came out but I was so wrong after I saw it. And I'm excited for National Treasure: Book of Secrets. Oh, that's right, my friends. Number 2, baby. That is a world of YES. 
Have you read any good books lately? I'm down for anything: latest reads, rumored good reads, your favorites, classics, etc. Suggest away!
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6 May 2007
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I've been helping friends move into apartments around the city lately. It's been a very cool experience from apartment hunting to finally seeing them get the apartment. Seeing the setbacks are humbling because it's never that easy on the first try; seeing them downright happy is a great feeling. It's been exciting but at the same time, a little sad. Everyone's growing up, including me. It's strange. You dream about it as a kid, living it up on your own. It's harder than it looks, and when you reach that point you think, "Wait, what? When did I become an adult?" It's a wake up call: you're not a kid anymore. You have the R-word. Responsibility. I'll always be a kid at heart though. Heck, I still laugh at "homo erectus" and will always do "That's what she said." But becoming an adult... you can't help being more serious and a little less fun. But hey, just live it up. Embrace it and keep on laughing. This makes me happy. How much do you want to work with them? The answer: a lot.
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3 May 2007
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Sometimes words just won't do. What's left is talking and that's what I'll do. 
"I tell you these stories because these things happen to everyone. It's not about being starched or polished or cute or polite. It's about having ears that stick out, about breaking yet another glass. It's about seeing something for the first time and making a million mistakes and not ever getting completely discouraged." -- Maira Kalman |
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Hi, my name is Amy. Be well, and say hello!
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