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 I used to be good friends with someone several years ago. One summer, a mutual friend told me that she (the good friend) actually didn't like me because I was too quiet. She was annoyed by it. That, of all things, really stung. I remember feeling sad, angry and surprised all at once. Of all the people I've known in life, they've accepted me for who I am. I know I'm a quiet person, and during high school I was painfully shy. I'm not as shy anymore, I don't think. And that's probably because I've learned to love and be a little more comfortable with myself through the years. So that good friend and I are, naturally, acquaintances now. She moved on and me out her life. I think she presently has more outgoing friends, and I hope she's not annoyed by that. The people I appreciate the most are the ones who are patient with me. If you think you'll know me in one month or two months, keep trying. I don't open up very easily. It may take years for you to know me, and I don't (consciously) do this to be difficult--it's just how I am. I'm not an open book like most people are; I don't have the ability to expose everything. I'm quite private, but if you talk to me, if you ask me things, if you try, I'll answer, I'll talk, I'll let you in. People have given up on me, and I think they often wonder, "What's the point?" And I guess that's the thing with having so many layers. But if you try, and maybe this sounds a bit boastful, I think you'll discover a pretty wonderful and imperfect person underneath. Though, on the bright side of layers, I'm kind of like a never-ending mystery.
— 3 May 2010
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Hi, my name is Amy. Be well, and say hello!
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I am this way too, and the older I get, the more grateful I am for the people who put the time in, because I don't make it easy and I think I project that I'm not interested. I don't know that I've really gone that far to get to know someone. I too often wait for them to come to me.
Aww man, I feel ya! Sometimes I get so frustrated with myself because I'm so quiet, and I'm sure other people do too >
I'm similar, in the sense that if you think you know me after hanging out a couple times, think again. I'm not necessarily quiet, but I'm very private about things that other people wouldn't think I would be. Like I'll tell you all about the boys in my life, but hardly anyone knows that my dad died when I was young or that my mother and I have a rocky relationship. And I agree, it's a good thing. The layers make it interesting! It's my friends who shout it all out in the first conversation that I have to struggle to see again (because they are the real ones where one can say "What's the point?")